i was feeling a bit sorry for myself this weekend... wondering why nothing ever works out for me. my mom always told me that everyone is entitled to a pity party, but only for one day. luckily i'm able to recognize when i'm feeling this way so i can snap out of it pretty quickly. the truth is, nobody wants to be around a Debbie Downer.
the message is loud and clear that Jon just isn't that into me. it's unfortunate...it's always disappointing when things don't work out. i guess i was just surprised at how quickly he threw in the towel out of nowhere. it's hard not to take it personally too. a few of my friends said they were actually surprised at how much of a fight i was putting up, given that i wasn't entirely sure of our connection at first. was it simply the thought of "losing him" that made me want him even more? a situation of wanting what i can't have? if i'm honest with myself, this is probably the case.
p.s. i just realized that i have NO single girlfriends in Ottawa anymore!
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Round 5: The Set Up
it's been about a month since i first wrote about Jon. initially, we saw each other 4 times in one week and then both of us had pretty hectic work and life schedules which didn't permit us to spend time together for another 3 weeks. after date #4, he texted me to say that he thought i was really fun and wanted to kiss me that night, but wasn't sure if the feeling was mutual. i responded and told him that it absolutely was and that he should just go for it next time. his response: i WILL!
in between date #4 and 5, there were some very flirty, comfortable texts back and forth between us... however when we met up for date #5, again, he seemed maybe shy/nervous. oh, and no kiss on date #5. my plan was to go in for the kiss myself, but chickened out. i started to take it personally for some reason (bring on the crazy!) so i texted him and wrote "that's weird, we didn't kiss tonight!" he agreed and said that again, he really wanted to.
this past weekend i was away in Toronto and he was away in Montreal. on Saturday, i asked him if he wanted to spend the day with me on holiday Monday, stating that we should have a "day date". i've only seen him at night, and thought it would be fun to do some sort of activity during the day (not to mention the fabulous weather i knew we would be having!). his response: "i've always dreamed of that" (i'll take that as a YES!!). while we didn't have a time or activity lined up, he definitely agreed to Monday. so on Monday morning when i messaged him asking him if we were still on, he replied saying that he was actually on his way out for a ride on his motorcycle to Tremblant. huh? i was hurt that he wasn't asking me if i wanted to tag along and that he was essentially ditching me. there was no mention of meeting up later on that day. i replied saying that there must have been some sort of miscommunication and that i thought we had plans. i didn't want to be overdramatic and girly, but i definitely wanted him to know that i was disappointed. he apologized and said that it was days like this that he wished his bike could seat a passenger. i guess he was flying solo....
i think it's important to trust your gut when dating. as i mentioned earlier, he messaged me A LOT about a month ago. as of late, i feel as though his messages have dwindled and that he's losing interest (or possibly dating someone else?). i've been reminded by my friends that i'm reading too much into things (read: paranoid), that he's a guy, and probably saw that it was a nice day outside and the opportunity to take his bike out.
it will be interesting to see if he contacts me again for another date!
sometimes i really do wonder if i'm too busy to date though.
in between date #4 and 5, there were some very flirty, comfortable texts back and forth between us... however when we met up for date #5, again, he seemed maybe shy/nervous. oh, and no kiss on date #5. my plan was to go in for the kiss myself, but chickened out. i started to take it personally for some reason (bring on the crazy!) so i texted him and wrote "that's weird, we didn't kiss tonight!" he agreed and said that again, he really wanted to.
this past weekend i was away in Toronto and he was away in Montreal. on Saturday, i asked him if he wanted to spend the day with me on holiday Monday, stating that we should have a "day date". i've only seen him at night, and thought it would be fun to do some sort of activity during the day (not to mention the fabulous weather i knew we would be having!). his response: "i've always dreamed of that" (i'll take that as a YES!!). while we didn't have a time or activity lined up, he definitely agreed to Monday. so on Monday morning when i messaged him asking him if we were still on, he replied saying that he was actually on his way out for a ride on his motorcycle to Tremblant. huh? i was hurt that he wasn't asking me if i wanted to tag along and that he was essentially ditching me. there was no mention of meeting up later on that day. i replied saying that there must have been some sort of miscommunication and that i thought we had plans. i didn't want to be overdramatic and girly, but i definitely wanted him to know that i was disappointed. he apologized and said that it was days like this that he wished his bike could seat a passenger. i guess he was flying solo....
i think it's important to trust your gut when dating. as i mentioned earlier, he messaged me A LOT about a month ago. as of late, i feel as though his messages have dwindled and that he's losing interest (or possibly dating someone else?). i've been reminded by my friends that i'm reading too much into things (read: paranoid), that he's a guy, and probably saw that it was a nice day outside and the opportunity to take his bike out.
it will be interesting to see if he contacts me again for another date!
sometimes i really do wonder if i'm too busy to date though.
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